I know it’s been a while since I have done a blog entry here. Lots of things have kept me busy from doing both of my blogs, and I have had a hard time getting energy and inspiration to do both. But once again I am going to try to change that and be better about it.

Sean and I just returned from a wonderful vacation in the Outer Banks visiting with my brothers and sisters, nieces and nephews and my Mom. It was great to spend time with everyone, something I do not do nearly as much. There are many times where it seems like I am something of a hermit, never leaving the house much and working. It’s a bad thing because it tends to make me more nervous and shy about going out at all. So that leads me into today’s question:

When was the last time you felt really nervous?

I just read a blog entry from Brandon Steiner of Steiner Sports about nerves. He writes that it is a good thing to feel nervous as it can help bring out the best in you. There may be something to that theory. I tend to feel nervous a lot. I think I have always been like that, and in a way it may have held me back from doing some things throughout my life. I have gone through fits and spurts where I seem to get over it for a while and then it comes creeping back, but I think ever since I was sick I do seem to be more nervous about doing a lot of things. I know there are tasks that I can and can’t do anymore, but I think the nervousness of it all does tend to hold me back some. It’s something I need to work on hard to try to get beyond and sometimes I feel like it is something I deal with on a daily basis. I used to get really nervous talking on the phone, but years of customer service and working in retail have kind of put an end to that. I may not like talking on the phone very much, but I do not have a problem with it any more. I do still tend to get nervous and quiet in social settings where I may not know anyone or very few people. I feel very out-of-place when that happens, almost like I am intruding on the event and should not be there. I get that way a lot, even when I have parent-teacher conferences at Sean’s school and am there to be informed about Sean. I still get nervous about it.

I don’t have a problem speaking in front of a crowd as much as I used to either, but I still get nervous about it. Going through the Master’s program and teaching has a way of curing you of that pretty quickly and then speaking in front of executives in meetings at work can help you get over that fast as well. In  way, I think Brandon Steiner is right in that we can really get better through taking that nervous energy and harnessing it and taking that energy and using it through the day to give our best effort. At least it is something for me to work on.

So when was the last time you felt really nervous? It can be about anything or at anytime. You can answer by leaving a comment on here or catching up with me on Facebook or Twitter. I’ll also ask a few people on Twitter and see what they have to say.

That’s it for now. I’ll try to be better about getting back here. Once school starts up again in 2 weeks I think I can budget my time better between work, household duties, Sean and writing, so we’ll see how it goes. I’ll try not to feel overwhelmed and nervous by the whole thing. Talk to you later.